urgent need: going back to the basic
[CPE reflection - wk 5, 19 sept. '06]
ER has been the term that dominated my fifth week and it tells something to me. There is an urgent thing to deal with or to address. And, what is it?
The first thing that came to my mind when I was asked this question was the immediate need to make clear my answer to God’s call to love. This talks about my answer to the basic questions of vocation – “What do I really want? Which path should I take? Am I really determined to become a priest? Or am I called to leave the idea behind and start my life outside priesthood? Which does God really will for me to take on?”
Whenever I check this matter, it has been here inside me yet I am not able to come to an end and make my commitment. Because this has not been clear to me yet, I did not have clear direction too in my life so that many more things in my life have been affected and paralyzed. What would help me in this, I believe, is to pray that my own desire and Gods plan meet so that everything else would follow and become clear to me.
Actually, I realize that the answer to my questions does not depend so much on me, on what I think should be, but on what God is telling me and letting me feel in my heart so that whenever I find difficulty in facing the whole reality of my choice, inclusive of both joys and pains, I could always go back to his assurance of love and healing, not only in my mind but most especially in my heart. It is always good to go back to the times that God worked on me to fill up my limitations. That once my heart has been wounded and God has cured it, and assured me to take care of its healing. What he needs me to realize is I am filled with that love and kept in its warmth.
Therefore, this matter is more of God’s work than mine. I would let God reveal it to me in time. Consequently, I asked myself what is urgently needed for me to do something about. I realize it is for me to make myself open to God’s promptings that have been coming before me. God has been working already to answer those questions laid above and my part is to be aware of and cooperate with the Holy Spirit’s guidance, whatever it takes to do it. It is for me to take responsibility and not just let things be when I am prompted to make decisions and take actions. It is for me to be conscious that I got a big chunk of the accountability for each other that God gave to all men. I am accountable for all my actions and decisions to myself, to others and ultimately to God.
By the grace of God, I would now take the responsibility of doing my part. Though many times I fail to realize it, God never fails.
ER has been the term that dominated my fifth week and it tells something to me. There is an urgent thing to deal with or to address. And, what is it?
The first thing that came to my mind when I was asked this question was the immediate need to make clear my answer to God’s call to love. This talks about my answer to the basic questions of vocation – “What do I really want? Which path should I take? Am I really determined to become a priest? Or am I called to leave the idea behind and start my life outside priesthood? Which does God really will for me to take on?”
Whenever I check this matter, it has been here inside me yet I am not able to come to an end and make my commitment. Because this has not been clear to me yet, I did not have clear direction too in my life so that many more things in my life have been affected and paralyzed. What would help me in this, I believe, is to pray that my own desire and Gods plan meet so that everything else would follow and become clear to me.
Actually, I realize that the answer to my questions does not depend so much on me, on what I think should be, but on what God is telling me and letting me feel in my heart so that whenever I find difficulty in facing the whole reality of my choice, inclusive of both joys and pains, I could always go back to his assurance of love and healing, not only in my mind but most especially in my heart. It is always good to go back to the times that God worked on me to fill up my limitations. That once my heart has been wounded and God has cured it, and assured me to take care of its healing. What he needs me to realize is I am filled with that love and kept in its warmth.
Therefore, this matter is more of God’s work than mine. I would let God reveal it to me in time. Consequently, I asked myself what is urgently needed for me to do something about. I realize it is for me to make myself open to God’s promptings that have been coming before me. God has been working already to answer those questions laid above and my part is to be aware of and cooperate with the Holy Spirit’s guidance, whatever it takes to do it. It is for me to take responsibility and not just let things be when I am prompted to make decisions and take actions. It is for me to be conscious that I got a big chunk of the accountability for each other that God gave to all men. I am accountable for all my actions and decisions to myself, to others and ultimately to God.
By the grace of God, I would now take the responsibility of doing my part. Though many times I fail to realize it, God never fails.
posted by Roy at 3:08 PM
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